The stirrings were intense
leaving my stomach in a churn
my cheeks damp and my heart all overflowing
When I land there, I am taken aback
I tell my smote heart to not lose it
to my consternation my clothes are all wrong
I had tried to dress the traditional way
but the way I carry them makes me stand out
the syllables that proudly roll off my tongue
though similar to theirs
have an alien accent even to my own ears!
the sights, the sounds which I had imagined
had pulled my strings all these years
now leave me strangely uncomfortable and rueful
my crinkling of nose and exasperated sighs
though smothered, are frowned upon
the whispering behind my back is hard to miss
I smile awkwardly
gulping the too sweet milky tea hastily
scalding my tongue and heart
I long to go back
but that home is also not home
all these years that I have spent
have stayed as an outsider,
standing on the periphery never belonging
tethered to the memories of my supposed roots
and now I stand exposed
floating in a limbo
not sure where home is.
Ragtag Daily Prompt Saturday: Hiraeth
So incredible, raw, and evocative. ❤️❤️
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Thanks a lot, Lucy. ❤️❤️
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Oh this is incredible Punam. You’ve captured the feeling so perfectly
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Thanks a lot, Sadje. ❤️
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You’re most welcome my dear
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That’s heartbreakingly beautiful, Punam!
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Thanks, dear Shweta. ❤️
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I agree with all the commenters. Wonderful kick in the guts poem,
Punam.
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Aww! Thanks, Tracy. ❤️
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Pleasure.
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Excellent write for the prompt Hiraeth. The longing is palpable!
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Thank you so much, Heather. I am glad it came through. ❤️
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You’re welcome.
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Brilliant composition of words, Punam. Loved the picture too, perfect.
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How lovely that you liked the picture. Thanks a lot, Kamal. 🙏🏼❤️
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You are always welcome dear Punam 🙏🏼😊😊😊
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Oh Punam, I really feel this! I have lived in so many places that I’m not sure where home is…great poem!
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It feels so good to know that my words resonated with you, Ingrid. Thank you. ❤️
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Punam, an exquisite poem, poignant and relatable. My sister is looking for a retirement home. She and I were discussing yesterday this longing to find a place to live that feels like home. She emailed me the Bovevil Song from YouTube. The Bovevil in the song devours all the cotton crops before moving on and is always, “just lookin’ for a home, just lookin’ for a home…”
For a lot of my life, I have been “just lookin’ for a home.” The closest thing I have found to a home is not a place, but the people dearest to me. Revisiting our roots is not easy and may be unsettling, but I believe it is a valuable exercise. Your lovely poems reflect that you know who you are, and that is the important thing. ❤
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Cheryl, thank you so much for sharing this with me. I guess most of us keep looking for a place to belong all our life. I so agree with you that “home is not a place but the people dearest to me”. What a profound thought!❤️
Thanks so much once again. Hope you are well and so is Robert. ❤️
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“I long to go back
but that home is also not home”
Splendid poem Punam. You are at your best here.
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Aww! That is such a beautiful compliment! Thanks so much, Gabriela. 🥰❤️🤗
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My pleasure hon 🥰❤️🌹
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Beautiful and heart-touching Punam dear❤❤
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Thanks a lot, Ishita. I am glad it touched your heart. ❤️🤗
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poignant capture of our distorted feelings longing for our place of origin and finally arriving to know that we have changed but nothing there has … I am so grateful I’ve found my ‘forever’ home! Even during our current strict lockdown I’ve reconnected with a lady who had done a course with me so know I have another friendly face 🙂
And look at your avid readers now, great poets themselves so that says you “have arrived” sis, congrats!
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Lucky for you, Kate! The frequent lockdowns have induced a strange sense of restlessness.
Thanks a lot, sis. Your faith in my writing is very touching. ❤️🙂
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I am indeed blessed but our entire state is now under strict lockdown as delta rips thru Sydney as it’s spread by feral men fleeing for their lives …
ta, I missed my vocation as a talent spotter 🙂
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Lol! You are doing it now gratis! 🙂
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So beautifully written
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Thanks a lot, Shantanu.
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My absolute pleasure
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💕🦋🌹
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🤗❤️🌷
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A beautiful reflection, full of mirrored human emotions. Resonates deeply and profoundly. Lovely, Punam. ❤️
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Ah! Kindred spirits…that means a lot, Jeff. Thanks muchly. ❤️
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Yes! Indeed. You’re most welcome, Punam. Always. ❤️
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Aww… just loved it. And reading this alerted me to the prompt. I had to add something. Fingers crossed, I hope I’m not too late. You guys rock! TYSVM
I just adored yours xoxo.
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Thanks so much. So appreciate your reading it.
You are never too late for RDP. From next Saturday I will be hosting on Saturdays. Hope to see you around. xoxo
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God willing, you will. 💃🏼 🕺 💕
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Your poems are so deeply touching, true feelings of the heart that one can relate to, such beautiful composition and choice of words! Made me realize the long phases of life where I didn’t really know what/which was my home.
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You leave me speechless with your appreciation. Thank you so very much, my dear. 💙
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You are very welcome, my pleasure and privilege 💛✨
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Oh my, the last line! Not sure where home is. Wonderful way to close a poem about longing for home. Brilliant! 🙏🤍
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Thanks a lot, dear Sahana. ❤️
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My pleasure! 🙏😃
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This is wonderful Punam. I felt every word inside. The sense of longing so well said. Love it so much. Thanks for sending the link otherwise I would have missed out 🙂 🙂
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Thank you so, so much, Brian. ☺️
I wouldn’t have let you miss it. 😉
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wonderful: true and touching 🔆💙.. hope you r fine and your summer went well 📚☕️🧘♀️🏊♀️
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Thanks a lot, Victoria! 💙 I am fine and the summer was hot! 😉
I hope you are well.
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Here’s rain 🌧 last week (or two) 🤨 Glad you r ok 🌟🥞📝😀
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Superbe and stirring write Punam,☺️🥲 I can relate. After 22 years living abroad, spending holidays “home” feels very strange, both familiar and foreign at the same time😳.
A fabulous write! Thank you for this!🙏
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I am touched that this resonated, Didier. So appreciate your sharing this. Thanks a lot. 🙏🏼😊
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You are most welcome,☺️🙏
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felt this in my bones especially these lines – but that home is also not home
all these years that I have spent
have stayed as an outsider,
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This means a lot to me. 🙏🏼🙂
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Hauntingly beautiful 🖤
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Thanks a lot. 💙
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