Being alone

Horrified by my own shadow, I retreat
but the cold walls of indifference repel me
despair clings to my fearful heart
emptying it of all hope
am I dying as I lose all my desires!
my smile has never been more artificial
the lonely ocean lures my ghosts of aloneness
offering refuge in its suspended waves
the jaded feelings set sail to darkness
not afraid of sinking in the quagmire of hopelessness
the sun offers nothing new or exciting each day
so I warmly embrace the chill night
waiting for eternal sleep.