Is this me?

Day 30: Me or Who am I?

The sum of all the things I do
All the roles that I play
All that is expected of me
Is that what makes me, me!

The things I want to do but can’t
The words that sit unspoken on the tip of my tongue
The dreams I crush with my own hands
Do they also constitute me!

Am I lost in the roles I play
Am I made up of bits and pieces
Do you see the real me in my words
Do they successfully camouflage real me!

Why am I one at the cost of the other
Why does one take precedence over the other
Why should I be faced with a choice
Where I have to forsake one for the other?

Why does the mother take a beating
When the writer in me triumphs!
Why can’t I be multi-armed like goddess Durga*
To vanquish all my fears and doubts
And wield a pen, a ladle, a nappy, a cursor, a needle
All at the same time with the same dexterity!

The dilemmas I face everyday
Weaken as well as strengthen me
Dichotomies define and mar me
I ask the questions and give answer too
And I realise as I take stock of self
I am to you what I am
Because of the way you perceive me!

*Durga- Durga is depicted in the Hindu pantheon as a goddess riding a lion or tiger, with many arms each carrying a weapon.
She is the warrior goddess, whose mythology centres around combating evils and demonic forces that threaten peace, prosperity and dharma of the good. She is the fierce form of the protective mother goddess.

(Written for OctPoWriMo)


45 thoughts on “Is this me?

  1. Hey, dichotomies define each one of us! We are a bundle of contradictions wrapped in this human skin and it’s for the world to accept us the way we are. It’s tough dealing with it from the inside I know, but tis the truth! Well written P!

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  2. This is a wonderful poem. You have described the challenges every woman faces. We are the nurturers and lovers and everyone must have our attention. Only the little piece you hold back is what you get. When you can close off to all of those who take so much from you, you can excel with your writing. Men have mastered this since the dawn of time! I can relate to everything you said ❀️☺️ Well done!

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    1. Women have more roles to play now than ever before in history. Much more is expected and demanded of them and if they are not fortunate enough to be able to engage a household staff,stats are finding they are suffering health wise.

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  3. And I am what I am
    each day, facing into contradiction,
    affirming my heart’s desire,
    my essential self,
    just for now, between all else.

    A poem that challenges us each to be true to ourselves. Thank you.

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  4. Brilliant depiction of most women’s dilemma today Punam. One thing i have realised that it’s impossible to please everyone. So as long as you accept yourself for who you are, the rest doesn’t matter.

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