I absolved you of the power to torture me
When I realised I could do it much better
You can no longer inflict pain with your words or silence
Your efforts to make me feel culpable for your miseries
Amount to nothing now!
Self- flagellation is such a sweet affliction
I love the festering wounds I carve on my soul
Staying awake in the deep of the night
Repeating my sins like a mantra
I keep the sniveling monster inside me alive
My innards are a cauldron of guilt
Bubbling with torment and suffering
I like being in this mortifying state
There is certainly heroism in masochism.
Day 12: Tortured
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Visceral and powerful. Thanks for sharing! 🙂
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Aww! Thank you so much. Was not easy to write.
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I can imagine
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Thank you.
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Wow. This is so powerful Punam
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Thanks dear Lorraine. It was tough to write this one.
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I guessed that. I iften feel the same
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Thank you dear.
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Evocative. The imagery is powerful. There is so much truth here in each line. We definitely torture ourselves better than anyone else possibly can.
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Thank you so much. Indeed, we torture ourselves endlessly.
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Profound. Sometimes this is the only way to deal with it.
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Yes, sometimes there is no other way. Thank you so much.
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Brilliant
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Thank you so much dear Sakshi.
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My pleasure
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Brilliant and powerful my sweet friend! Very well done!
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Awww, that’s so nice of you to say! Thank you so much dear. Not an easy one to write though.
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I can imagine it wasn’t. I hope you are well.
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Yes, I am doing well Stella, thank you so much dear 🙂
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You’re welcome!:):)
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This one is really very deep. A reminder to us all not to give others the right to hurt us and not to do so ourselves. Thanks for sharing
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Yes, we gain nothing out of it except more pain. Thank you so much for reading.
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Muchly wow!
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Thank you kindly. I am humbled.
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Wow, so powerful! Wonderfully written!
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Thank you so much dear for your kind words.
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That last line tho. Wow.
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Aww! Thank you kindly.
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This whole piece had me enthralled. Very riveting write!
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Thank you so much. I really appreciate your kind words.
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Oh, self-flagellation, how true this rings! Definitely captures the spirit of it very well.
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Thank you so much.
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We do hold within the power to torture ourselves far more than others ever could. Great writing!
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Yes, we do. Thank you kindly.
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You are welcome.
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paralysing words Punam. demons and monsters let loose when solitude brings doubts, you penned this with great accuracy
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Oh, yes! They can be so paralysing. I was there once long ago, it was tough writing about it. Thank you so much dear.
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you have? I am sorry to hear that.
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Long ago Gina. When you are young, you are more of a drama queen…at least that was the case with me! So don’t be sorry about that. I am in a good place now and that is what matters.
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i cannot imagine you the drama queen! i have always been the inconsequential child, partner, person whatever, I can be there and no one sees me, I like it that way. i envied the drama queens, they seemed to know how to garb life and live it!
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No, not in the attention grabbing, limelight craving sense! Lol That’s just not me!
But in the sense of magnifying my problems and every time trouble knocked, thinking that I am the unluckiest. But snapped out of it pretty soon. But living an inconsequential life has its own benefits. I get to lead my life, my way without attracting undue attention.
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haha! over dramatic princess then! we all need some drama – thats my day dreaming phase, i can get lost in my own thoughts, i love my solitude and guard it fiercely. we are more alike than what i imagined before.
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Indeed, much more than we thought:)
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Mind-blowing, this a mega wow… I can feel the power in the movement of your words and the imagery they create. I especially like the line “My innards are a cauldron of guilt bubbling with torment and suffering.” 🙂
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Awww! Thanks Jenna. This means a lot because I don’t often write like this.
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You’re very welcome Punam!😊 💕
It’s always interesting to mix up our writing style from time to time and see what happens as a result.
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True that! ❤️
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