The room is full of people
I have thousands of followers on twitter
Everyday I get so many likes
My whatsapp is always buzzing
But I am feeling so empty inside.
I have an opinion on everything
My status must be updated every hour
I Photoshop my pics to my liking
I follow all who matter in the showbiz
But why am I so unhappy tonight?
My parents are simple people
I am too ambitious for them
My boyfriend is a small town guy
Who wants to be bigger than me
I have scores of friends
We hang out everyday after work
But I have no one with whom
I can share all that troubles me.
I have to be ahead and better
I can not lose this race
I have to beat others at any cost
I can’t bear to be a laggard.
I have to have all I can have
And then some more to top
But whatever I have acquired till now
Gives me no pleasure any more.
No one knows the real me
No one cares for my feelings
No one can hear when I cry within
No one has time for me
I myself have completely lost touch
With the person I actually was.
I want to lie down for a while
I want to cry my heart out
I want to scream and be heard
I want answers to my whys
But most of all I want to be just me
I am tired of not being me
I want to curl up and die.